there are times when you have to change. things around you force that you happen. some changes you want to control and you can control them but that may not be the best solution. letting go of control is a hard thing to learn. to think you could have prevented something but you did not because this time the best thing to do is to just let go... but the idea still swirls in your head.
"what if..."

other ideas: the worth of honesty in today's society. how much is it really worth? if telling the truth only gets you into trouble why tell it? Why does society encourage lying?

The Scary Thing About Life

There is a scary thing about life and that is the fact that it exists. there is no denying it if we are consciousness then we are alive. So why do we deny it. We deny plain truth when it is right in our face. We see what want not what is. We sometimes know what we want and how to get there, all things are solved and all we have to do is do and we do nothing. it does not makes sense from any logic. Human. That we are. We all want happy lives and almost none of us get that. If you had the chance to do what was best would you?

.... Just thinking. But the thing is what stops us? who says: NO YOU CAN'T DO THAT?, why don't we have more strength, more hope. What is stopping us? It is very confusing... all of this very confusing.